“Moving is great!” ( – No one, ever)
I grew up in a military family, so moving has become a norm for me; it’s just a way of life. However, nothing is as difficult as moving by yourself. I know, because I’m doing it for the second time. And as I was wrapping up my fragile items and folding and sorting a mountain of laundry on the living room floor while watching The Proposal, I thought about how perfectly this whole situation ties into the theme of vulnerability.
A year ago, I moved out to Texas after one careless charting mistake resulted in the loss of my job. Now I am out of work again, not for another mistake, but from repercussions from that first gaffe (In case anyone was curious, it is an extremely difficult, expensive, and drawn out process to get a nursing license in another state after a situation like this. Basically, don’t make stupid charting errors).
Talk about vulnerability! I am having to rely heavily on sheer trust in God. I’m moving back in with my family, leaving my friends and awesome coworkers here, leaving my best friend who just had her first baby, and driving 20+ hours to Virginia. I am then going to spend the next few weeks pounding the pavement to find a job.
I’ve been on an emotional roller coaster the past few weeks, with my emotions ranging in a single day from sobbing on the living room floor over the wretched state of my “horrible life,” to praising God for his utter faithfulness and love, to laughing hysterically over whatever tickled my fancy at that very moment. I feel exactly like Rapunzel running around in Tangled, one minute ecstatic over her new found freedom, the next bemoaning her audacity to defy her mother and wailing that she’s a terrible daughter (if you haven’t seen it, you can check it out here).
Trust me, it’s stressful stuff, this whole moving thing. Seriously. I texted a friend of mine yesterday, and her response was “You’re so out of line. Get ahold of yourself, and realize how selfish you sound right now.” Which of course pissed me off immensely, but she was absolutely right! (Don’t worry, we made nice-nice after I admitted I was completely in the wrong and that she, as usual, was correct and is still awesome)
So lesson number one from this: remember to breathe, and think very, very carefully about what you say and do while under stress. It’s easy to let it get to you, but no good can come of it when it does.
Lesson number two: “God gives and takes away,” “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger,” “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me….” What do these have in common? They all say the same thing: keep going, breathe, and trust that whatever you’re going through right now will pass away, and when it does your world will be a brighter place than it was before. Every cloud has a silver lining; sometimes they are as obvious as the sunshine. Other times you have to go and find them. Sometimes there are multiple silver linings…But that might be asking for too much… 😉
The biggest lesson is this: never let your stressors and life situations keep you from clinging faithfully to God. He’s the only thing that’s constant, and He’s the only one who can get you through each and every trial and tribulation He allows. He is conditioning you for something; he is testing you, but will never let you out of the palm of His Mighty Hand. He might break you, but if He does it’s only because He needs to heal you and to make you a better person. And He will. He’s a loving father; He will never break you and leave you.
He’s got a plan. We might not see it or know it, and that’s where trust and vulnerability come in.
Cling to God, and do not be afraid. Somehow, sometime, all things will work together for God’s good.
(*This post is just as much a reminder to myself as it is to anyone else. I have to slap sense into myself multiple times a day lately.)
(**I am gladly accepting prayers for my own inner peace, for a job, and for a safe and uneventful move, and for no glitches renewing my Virginia license. Please and thanks a million!)
(***I have this playlist. It’s my go-to playlist for when life seems to be getting the better of me. And it’s completely all over the place, but they’re my favorites.)
(****I’m done, I just wanted to see if you were still reading. ;p)